Not creative enough to think of one right now.

So 2008 is just about over... like what? 10 days or something left until the big countdown. Seems like 2008 was very short in a way. Maybe it's because there weren't exactly a lot of milestones for me this year. That doesn't mean this year wasn't absolutely amazing however I mean, wow, I had an incredible year. I'll probably never forget last New Years on msn with Kaitlyn:
"will you still love me in 2008?"
"OF COURSE! You'll see."

*NEW YEAR*

"HAPPY NEW YEAR!!"
"I still love you."

What kind of losers actually get a kick out of that? Us of course. So yea you "cool" people who went out and got drunk and made out with 17 different people in one night and probably don't even remember that night very well, srsly, give the simple things a try. My last memory of 2007 and first memory of 2008 was pretty epic! Can't wait to see what crazy shinnanigans we come up with this year!!

So the actual year. Grade nine haha. What a funny year. I'll never forget Westmin. I don't ever know what I think of it really, I loved it and I hated it. Grade nine was fun, probably the best year I've had so far. Grade nine Grad! Oh my god! Renting the limo with all ym best friends (except Kaitlyn). Amazing night, everyone (including me oddly) looked absolutely stunning and wow, it was amazing, just dancing and laughing and taking pictures and RYAN AND BRETT !!!! Me and Sierra's gay dates! Wow that night was pretty insane. I was really glad when it ended however, unfortunately a lot of Westmin followed me to high school, but I don't have to deal with it much. I really like high school so far, I've met some amazingly fantastic people. High school was a major wake up call for me, the work is hard and needs dedication and I'm very non-dedicated to everything. Grade 10 is amazing so far. But 2009 with probably be even better, can you beleive it's 4 months in already ?

I skipped over a huge thing in between grade nine and ten however. Summer 2008. The best summer, by far I've ever had in my entire life. Summer school was.... meh... well more like BLAH!!!! Summer school kinda sucked, I learned A LOT about sex though, pretty funny times. But after that, CITs at YoWoChAs... whoa... that was such a.... a month. Haha. It's kind of indescribable. I learned SO much about people. And even more about myself, camp really showed me a lot about myself, and changed me a lot I think, maybe for better. I don't really know. I learned I really don't build strong relationships, I'm way too trusting, and that I can't always be so negative and sometimes the best thing to do is forget all about what people think and say what you need to say. It was a fun month and it'll be very hard to forget, I could easily spend every summer there for the rest of my young life, but I don't think I will. The CITs and I don't really speak. And I sort of hate kids a little bit. I like them when they aren't my responsibility but, I can't look after kids, well I can, but I don't like to. I think I'll probably never have children. But anyway, CITs was pretty amazing and I really miss all the people I met there.

Anyways, I met a lot of new people this year but of course there's all year my best friends have been there through it all with me! Sierra, Kaitlyn, Kasandra, Skye, Ryan, James you guys rock my world!! I'd die without you!Of course there are lots of other little things, the new movies I saw, my first (and current) job which is pretty decent, new music, my first concert haha, honours, young author award, crushes here and there (all completely random jerk people cause those are the only people I'm attracted to), Canada Day at the river valley was pretty fun, and lots of other things.I've had a pretty awesome year obviously, let's make 2009 even better!
New Firsts
New Lasts
New Friendships
New Memories
New Questions
New Answers
New Ideas
New Regrets
PS: I MISS YOU SO SO SO SO SO MUCH BRETT AND FIONA !!

Hmm, my first experience with lingerie...

Today was quite the interesting day, both for me and my good friend Sierra Tanton. I actually am a little dissapointed in myself because I spent like $240 and I only got 3 shirts, one pair of jeans, a winter coat and boots and a hoodie. That isn't very much. But at the same time, I did save a little over $100, which is impressive for me. It's interesting having money. It's a great learning oppurtunity, and a good way to practise self-control and personal management. I actually have so many ideas for my money. In my house it's very very hard to eat healthy, let alone eat at all because of my fat face brother who eats everything in sight. So due to my recent hiring at Safeway I have developed a new grasp on cost of living and such, THEREFORE I have decided that I will do my own grocery shopping. I will need a lock however, because my brother will eat my food all the time. This just in, I also have to pay $20 to the phone bill every month also because my parents don't want to have to pay for something they never use. I feel so old. Ugh.

Anyways, back to today. It was so much fun. Sierra and I went to West Edmonton Mall to buy me a winter jacket and boots and her boots, and to go on our long time planned lingerie shopping trip. So our first stop was La Vien Rose where we tried on just one thing each, Sierra tried on this shiny metallic dark purple silk short dress number, and I tried on this sort of dull purple/beige silk short dress, I was so close to buying it. Then we decided to move along. We weren't really going anywhere we were sort of just walking when we ran into Mist from camp ! It was so cool to see her! So we hung out with her for like an hour while we waited for her friends. We just randomly looked in shoe stores for boots and Garage for a coat and then we went to Thriftys where I ended up buying a coat, 3 shirts, jeans, and a hoodie and Sierra bought a pair of black skinnys. After that I went to Orange Julius lol and I saw a couple people from my math class, THEN we headed off and we randomly passed a store which I never noted the name of which sold MORE LINGERIE ! So we went inside and Sierra tried on this Corset thing and a lacy black see through in the stomach thing she liked and I tried on a corset which made me look ridiculous. Then we left cause everything was like $99. After we went to payless shoes and I bought myself some sweet overpriced boots. Our last stop was La Vien Rose on the second floor where Sierra tried this hilarious top that was like a bra with strings hanging down which didn't really cover her stomach and then the saleslady was teaching us how to move our hips and belly dance !! ROFL x 1000000 !! It was so much fun. I tried on this cool short see throughish black dress with a little like cover thing that covered my sides and chest. It was hilarious! I just stood there laughing. And then Sierra decided on a tiny brown vertical striped vest thing. It was so funny. She bought it and I laughed. So now our mission is to find me some piece on lingerie I'll never wear also. I'M SO EXCITED !

I'm actually crazy outgoing recently, not sure why. I'm really happy with my life right now. I just all around enjoy everything. I absolutely LOVE my job and my friends are so awesome. The only thing I hate is school. I really truly HATE high school, but oh well, only 7 more months. Isn't it wierd that it's going to snow soon ? I don't think I will ever get my fill of summer. I wasn't born to live here at all. I love summer too much. I guess I like winter too, but god there are just too many things to name that I miss about summer. I don't understand in the least why it had to end. I really miss the CIT's. You have no idea. I'm so glad I have such awesome friends to keep me happy here. In a way I kind of wish my entire life was summer camp... you know? Not like children everywhere and initiatives and 4pm swimming and like a vacation, but instead of teachers I have counsellors, I always have a lake AND a sauna nearby, I am surrounded by people all the time I'm never alone, I can go outside and play football with my friends everyday, and everyone accepts everyone because no matter what everyone's hair looks just as bad as yours, everyone elses clothes supply is running low so it isn't a fashion contest, you aren't competing for the hottest boyfriend because everyone knows everyone and you can be yourself, no make up, no cell phones, no money. You have what you have and it isn't a contest. Don't you think life would be so much better that way? Sure it would have it's downsides, but wow, camp was so my life. I was born to be at camp.

Anyways, not much else to report about the day, it was a good day deffinetly. I'm sad it has to end and I have school tomorrow but I get to wear my cute new shirt tomorrow, so I guess it isn't all bad.

Peace and love,

Celeste

Just a thought... well many thoughts..

1. I love you like crazy. You're my best friend and my sister. We're so crazy alike yet way different. Sometimes it's kind of hard to be around you cause you're so much prettier than me but I'm not going to let that bother me. I'm so glad I have you in my life. We have way too many ridiculous inside jokes, it should be illegal.
2. God you're amazing. People aren't born nice. Not like you. You are truly sincerely and honestly nice and it's so rare to find someone like that. I wish there was a way to make up for how terribly I treated you all those years and it took some serious guts to stick it through that long and for us to become the friends we are today. I really hope you get everything you deserve out of life.
3. Wow, we have some crazy good times, no joke. Our inside jokes go above and beyond your typical inside joke. Our jokes are personal, no one would understand except us. You're so much fun and I love how shy you are around some people but how comfortable and yourself you are with me. It makes me feel really special. Also, you're so pretty. I'm jealous. No joke. I can't wait for new years!
4. I'm sorry. But you're a huge bitch. You are so odd as a friend. The only time I don't completely hate your guts is when we're actually together. Then I can actually stand you and sometimes enjoy you around, but as soon as you leave and somehow I hear or see you do something like the immature bullshit you always pull I hate you and want to run you over with a tractor. Also, grow up.
5. I'm sad to say I don't really know you as well as I'd like. You're so much fun but somehow we've just never really connected or had an inside joke. I hope this year does good for our friendship cause I absolutely love you to death.
6. I'm just a little bit dissapointed in you. I know you are very similar to the girl I knew growing up but it seems like you've lost a little bit of control and you care WAY WAY too much what other people think of you. I also think you beat yourself up for no good reason and I really think you should take more joy out of the simple things in life, like movies and sleepovers and going to Denny's at one in the morning NOT hammered out of your mind. It's the way to live girl. Trust me. I also love you. I've never had a friend like you other than you. I really appreciate you for that.
7. In an odd way I really do look up to you. You're talented and one of a kind and you're so much deeper than meets the eye and unlike with others, it didn't take me long to see that in you. Sometimes I think we are a little too much alike and it's a little odd, especially since out of all the people we mutually know you like me the least. It's almost like you're me in boy form. I know it's odd but I respect you and I really find you to be a laugh and a lot of fun. It sucks that it's such a strain for you to even acknowledge my existance. I hope I don't bother you anyway.
8. I miss you a lot. I'd just like to say. I wish you missed me too but it really doesn't seem like you do. I wish you'd let me know if you did.
9. I would seriously like to punch you in the fucking face. You don't understand anything and you're so rude and terrible to people. Also, SHUT THE FUCK UP ! I hope somebody punches your fucking face into oblivion in high school. Or runs you over or shoves your head in a locker and slams it. Any or ALL of the above would be an extreme understatement of what you deserve.
10. Oh my gosh. I love you. You brighten my day and make my life, seriously. You're so much fun and you actually don't even care about anything at all you just jump right in and talk to everyone and that's such a great quality. You'd make an awesome boyfriend I could tell, but I don't like you like that, so don't worry.

Music anyone?

And there's three, count 'em three
Children playing on the beach
They were eager to learn,
To be taught and to teach
There's Veronica She's biting her lip
As she watches the waves turn white at the tip
And there's Vada Radiating with joy
And luckily she still can't stand the sight of a boy
And lastly there's Dave
His hair dances in the wind
And he's wondering what love is
And why it has to end
And he can't understand
How everyone goes on breathing when true love ends
His mother whispers quietly...

Heaven's not a place that you go when you die
It's that moment in life when you actually feel alive
So live for the moment
And take this advice, live by every word
Love is just a hoax so forget anything that you have heard
And live for the moment now

And there's three, count 'em three
Children growing on the beach
They were eager to learn,
To be taught and to teach
There's Veronica
She's licking her lips
As she waits for her real, first passionate kiss
And there's Vada Can't admit her jealousy
Of her sister Veronica, and how she's so pretty (and how she's so pretty)
Lastly there's Dave Still sitting on the dock
Ponders his life, and he skips his rocks
And he wonders when his father will return
But he's not coming back
And he can't understand
How everyone goes on breathing when true love ends
His mother whispers quietly...

Heaven's not a place that you go when you die
It's that moment in life when you actually feel alive
So live for the moment
And take this advice, live by every word
Love is just a hoax so forget everything that you have heard (forget everything)

And there's three, count 'em three
Children missing from the beach
They were eager to learn, To be taught and to teach
But the sad thing
Is that they never lived passed the age of fifteen
Due to neglect from their mother
Who was bed ridden by her ex-lover, their father
She didn't even notice, or pay much attention
As the tide came in and swept her three into the ocean
Now all her advice, it seems useless

No, heaven's not a place that you go when you die
It's that moment in life when you touch her and you feel alive
So live for the moment
And take this advice, live by every word
Love's completely real, so forget anything that you've heard
And live for the moment now

And there it was...

"standing in the middle of the road. In a flash it was there, I slammed on the breaks just in time. Or so I had thought. I was flung forward and by the time I had collected myself and looked back up it was gone, like the flicker of static on the T.V. screen it was out of sight, and out of mind. What was wrong with me?"

Sorry about that. It just popped into my head randomly, it gives me a really good idea for a book. Anyways, so I haven't really written in a while. Well no one really reads these they're more for me anyway. But I'm having an exciting life right now so I decided I would document it. Kayla and I are beginning preparation for Hey-Babe and Call-Me tomorrow and we begin filming on Thursday so it'll probably be up next week. We have some good plans I must say.

So I'm working at Safeway, and it rocks. I really enjoy my job a lot and apparently I'm really good at it. I'm planning to save all my money until christmas and then blow it all on myself. Well not really I'll blow like $500 on my friends and then the rest on me. My friend James bought me and ipod nano, the new kind, for like $180 and I'm outraged and shocked and dismayed. So now I'm gonna buy him a laptop even though he doesn't want me to, I'm gonna anyway. Hahaha. In your face, James. I also have my eyes on a couple of sweet ass hoodies in FS. I'm pretty excited for christmas even though it's going to be fucking cold and dark early and stuff. GAH ! Outrage.

It's hard to beleive summer is over. It's getting so cold, I can't believe how quick it all went. I actually had an amazing summer. Summer school was so boring and bland, but camp was absolutely amazing. I'm a little sad though. I really really miss the all my friends from camp, and I'm very very sure that none of them miss me at all. Maybe it's because of the stuff I wrote about them in that stupid little journal, but for some reason. They don't miss me, and it kind of hurts to know that. I do miss some more than others but still... I miss them all a lot. I'm not so sure about going back to work there next summer I don't think it'll be a good idea but I actually enjoyed working with the kids so much, like no joke. Maybe it won't matter that the CITs from last summer don't like me or miss me. The kids are my number one priority anyway... right? Ugh.... who knows?

So high school is pretty amazing. I have my eyes on a couple cute guys and I have my amazing friends there with me of course. I really love my friends I'm so glad to have them there with me. I really like my math class. I have Sierra there which is awesome cause she teaches me everything I need to know and I also get to have some lovely chats with her about whatever happened during the day without the interuption of other friends. I also rather enjoy my math teacher. She's really funny. Last class she said that we can't do everything in our heads, that's why they invented the porn website. It actually made my life, no joke.

Anyways. I think that's about it in the Celeste update. Stay tuned I suppose.

Peace and Love.

Weekend .

So I had a weekend. Well obviously. It was sort of odd, I actually had a really great weekend and then something not so great happened. Well friday night . . . hmm I went to rock and ride with my friend Sierra. We had a great time just dancing and riding the awesome rides and it was a blast but I was being stalked the whole time which was not a plus. But it could have been worse I had fun except being in line for a whole hour waiting to go on the Orbiter. That night me and Sierra had a sleepover but it was just we got home and went to bed pretty much. But we talked about her ex-boyfriend a little bit too . Saturday was something called Fall Fest which is like a community get-together thing and it was so much fun. There was a family band there called the Hanson Genes and it was a dad his teenage daughter his young son and his little girls, it was so cute. Before the band went on they were all just chillin out around the park and I did my trick where I throw stuff in the air and catch it in my mouth and the lead singer was watching and clapped. Then later when they went on for the first set he asked me if I would do it again. It was great fun. His son, Brett, was a pro drummer. He was actually so intense and he was funny. Me and Sierra spent a lot of the evening dancing to their music it was a lot of fun. At the end of the night when they band was leaving I went and got a picture and had a chat with the lead singer named Bill. He was a cool dude. Then when Brett was walking by I was like "High five!" and he high fived me and said "Nice dancing," and I said "Nice drumming" and he laughed and said goodbye.

That's not all that happened there, oh no, Sierra and I hung out with these two guys named E.B. and Mitchel, and Kaden. Kaden is Sierra's ex-boyfriend and we'd never met E.B. or Mitchel before. So we made sort of a That 70's show circle around the fire pit cause I was cold, and E.B. passed around a cigarette. I didn't have any because I don't like smoking, but I don't really care if other people do it's their lives right? Anyways , so we were standing around and E.B. just randomly asks me if he has a hot voice, it was so funny. I said yes, because frankly, he did. E.B. was quite good looking, he had a girlfriend though but whatever he was still hot. Mitchel was a cutie. He had curly hair and he was short, a bit taller than me. It was funny Sierra pointed out that he was short and he said he was 5 6" and she said he was lying because I'm not that much shorter than him and he got like super close and put his arm around me to prove he was taller , it was so random. I had fun with them but they eventually had to leave. Which led to us finding out E.B. was short for Ebraham, and that Sierra doesn't know what "aborted" means. I had to explain to her. She thought it meant kicked out of your house. I laughed. Then we hung out with Kaden, which was so unbelievably odd I'm not even going into detail about it.

Then there was Sunday. I worked for 5 hours on Sunday at Subway and the entire time all my boss did was say how much better my friend James was than me. Everytime I did anything she was like "James was really good at that, you aren't." and stuff and it's ridiculous. The point is by the end of the day she had called James and gave him all my hours and I basically got fired. Which sucked alot. But oh well. I'll get a new job soon I guess.

So that was my weekend. I also found out that some friends (sort of) from CIT's had a mini-reuinion in Jasper. It made me kind of sad because I realized that no one from CIT's has even bothered to really try to see me or keep in touch other than Gravity who lives in Jasper. I'm not sure why I'm throwing this in here, but I just miss them and I'm a little convinced they don't miss me. But I can't just assume that, I hope they miss me. They're amazing people, I wish I could see them more.

I think that's it for this blog. Kind of boring I realize but oh well,

Peace and love.
Celeste.

Weed, friends, and life... hmm...

I'm aorry but, teenagers are so fucked I don't understand how they can be like that, just drink and smoke all the time and just think they're so cool because of it. Especially people I grew up with! I knew all these cute little innocent children and now, they're out drinking and smoking and making out every weekend and they aren't even the same human being anymore they lost everything good and replaced it with material stuff.It's like you can't have any form of unjoyment unless you're messing with yourself, testing to see what hurts and what doesn't and how much you can get away with I don't undrestand how people can have that attitude.
I don't bother trying to change people,if weed is more important to them than I am then they can just be happy with their weed
I'll be happy with my simple little ways of entertaining myself.